Patrolling

I hate adding people on Facebook that I haven't met in person. But..some of the guys I talked to online I wanted to see their Facebook and stalk a little. Who doesn't do this!?

I hate it though when things aren't necessarily .."working out" I guess you could say. Or when the douchebag just decides he isn't interested and stops talking to you for no reason. 

Then I get to the decision of whether I should delete them as a friend or keep them?  Makes things so awkward haha because most of the time they have your phone number at this point and if they notice that you're gone you get a random text saying hey how are you and you clearly know they've seen that you aren't 'friends' any more on Facebook and they're like what the heck because people get so freaking offended when you delete them from your Facebook....annoying. 

Don't text me when I haven't heard from you in weeeeeeeeks or in some cases...monthsssss!!! If you aren't going to talk to me and try to meet me or take me on a date after we've been chatting for weeks...leave me alone! Ain't nobody got time for dat!!!

There's a guy I really liked way back but never met in person but he had pretty much everything on the checklist (ladies you know what I mean) 

His life was set! 

He of course was older..29 (I'm 23) so it wasn't too bad but I've never dated anyone more than 2 years older than me. 

He had a kid at a very young age so his son was 13 and seemed a little odd for me just knowing he had a teen but he was a good dad and his son is in great health plays sports and they seem like they have everything put together

There was absolutely no baby mama drama she's been out of the picture the whole time

He had a great job, house, and car

And he was cute!

We added each other on Facebook and talked a lot on the phone through text and snapchat ..I really liked him 

But he could never make time to meet me. I tried. But failed. Then he just stopped. No more good morning snapchats of him smiling no more texts or phone calls when he got off work..so I said oh well. But I'm still currently friends with him on Facebook. Thought about deleting him this week considering he didn't tell me happy birthday...jerk.

Head over heels

I need to slow things down somehow even though things haven't really been rushed or anything but I feel like my emotions are going fullllll speed ahead and my brain is like slow the eff down before you get hurt ...again. 

I can't help it!

I really like Taco Bell guy..he's coming to see me tonight after he gets off work and I am so excited lol. Mainly want his scent back in my apt. I know sounds strange. Don't judge me. But he seriously smells amazing. And it's gone. I want it back! 

He's also supposed to come over tomorrow after I get off work :) can't wait. 

I've deleted my accounts ..might have already mentioned that. But I was so fed up with all of the man sluts on there. Seriously the last guy asked me if I would watch him do nastyyyy things and he promised he wouldn't touch me. He just wanted me to watch. Like seriously?!? I just threw up in my mouth a little! Nasty.

I'm just anxious to see him tonight. It's only been less than 2 days since I've seen him...is that bad? 

Finally!!

Well boys and girls...I do believe I've met someone that I want to fully pursue. I have deleted the online accounts and hopefully things will continue to go well!

I hope I'm not speaking too soon! 

The winner is....

*drumroll*

Taco Bell guy!!!! Ahhhhh! So exciting :)

So tonight he came to my apt and we rented a redbox and just sat on the couch watching our movie. For a while I thought maybe this is how it was going to be the whole night. We sat next to each other but we weren't like cuddling and smothering which, honestly, is pretty awesome for a change! Previous guys I've allowed to have movie nights in my apt want to rush and be all lovey dovey and I'm usually like ..dude I don't know you!!! 

Anyway...finally he reached for my hand and of course I felt like I was back in middle school <3

So we were a little closer than previously of course lol and I liked it :)

He smelllllllls soooooo good!!! 

It was getting super late and he kept saying that I needed sleep and that he should probably leave but I kept saying I'll be fine, I don't want you to go. Each time I said it he'd say okay and then he'd get just a little closer :) showing me he was okay with staying a little longer.

He then asked me what time I needed to get up for work and I told him...(less than 5 hours) and he looked at me and said, "I need to let you sleep, so I'm going to go" so I said okayyyyyyyyyy fine!

I walk him to his car and he hugs me ...really hugs me ...then the sweetest precious first kiss I have EVERRRRR experienced happened. 

It was perfect. 

Here's to hoping I don't screw things up!!!

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So I'm still on the dating app chatting with some other guys even though Taco Bell guy & I have been talking a LOT and I really really am starting to really really like him. But it doesn't hurt to still see what's out there just in case things don't work out. Right? I hope that's okay! 

One thing that really bugs me is how some of these guys are terrible at making conversation (taco bell guy isn't bad at all). A guy I started chatting with today, for example, has not initiated a conversation but continues to ask "what would you like to talk about?"

That is not what I consider initiating a conversation. What I mean by that is: you should show that you're interested in me. You want to know more about me. Or just bring up a crazy topic. Something along the lines about movies. For example: Have you seen that new Riddick movie? Or even something as simple as: Do you ever watch Law&Order? That's my favorite show. 

Be creative! 

This guy however answers the questions I ask about him but never asks anything about me. And he has said, "is there anything else you wanna know about me?"

I know where he works, he has 2 kids, his favorite music is country music, he recently had surgery on his shoulder, he doesn't drink a lot but likes to go out occasionally with friends, he has lived here all of his life, he has a lot of tattoos...just to name a few. He has not once asked me any of these topics about myself but continues to message as if he wants to keep talking. 

I don't get it.