Thursday, July 31, 2014

Life Update & What's Ahead

So I had about 2 paragraphs of a post written out then I just wasn't feeling it so I deleted it and started over. Instead of an informative/list post, I'm just going to talk about my upcoming weekend because it sure is going to be a chaotic/emotional one.

Friday at the rehearsal dinner, I'm in charge of organizing the way people walk down the aisle on Saturday. The bride (my cousin) has graciously given me the exact detail of how it will go so really I don't have a lot of responsibility as far as organizing, more like just instructing and telling people when to walk. Seems simple!

A member of the community passed away unexpectedly this week. To say he was just a member of the community would be a complete lie. This man inspired so many people in ways that are unbelievably true. My family was extremely close to this man, worked hand in hand with him. The outpouring love for him is allllll over Facebook. You may see a trending hashtag show up of a name that doesn't sound like a celebrity.

After the rehearsal I'll be attending the visitation of friends. Just thinking about it brings me to tears. The first day I heard about his passing, I couldn't accept it. It wasn't til today that I began to cry and mourn over his loss. One thing that really was an influence on my life initiated by him, was a choir I had participated in for a couple of years around high school days. Members from the past years have been asked to participate Saturday at the funeral in singing a recent choir song. I've had it on repeat all day.

This is going to be a really hard time for myself and other family members, church members, community members, youth, adults, and children that knew him and were blessed to work with him.


Saturday will be filled with the funeral in the morning and wedding activities the rest of the day. Decorating, doing the opposite of a rain dance, and taking pictures are part of my agenda on Saturday. Also, being little miss bossy (that I'm soooo good at) during the wedding to make sure everyone walks at the proper time.

When the wedding is over, Mr. Samoa will be meeting the rest of my gigantic family :) Everyone is excited!! He is, I am, my family's just going to be a great Sunday.

I'm struggling on whether or not I should attend church this Sunday. After the emotional drainage from the funeral.. I just don't think I could handle it. Also, with Samoa being with me.. I don't know if he'd be able to handle ME during church crying like a baby the whole time. What would be the point of my attendance if I'm mourning over the loss of someone instead of listening to the message?

Another struggle I'm having is trying to figure out what the heck I'm going to wear to the wedding. AHHHHH. I have this one maxi dress that's really slimming from WALMART!! Yes.. this dress is from wally-world :) I love it, except for the fact that it reveals my least favorite body part: my arms. Ugh..the struggle is real. So there's that option. It's an outside wedding so I'm trying to figure out what to wear that won't cause me to become drenched in sweat.

Technically instead of the typical weekend recap that is done on Mondays.. this is a weekend preview.. In hopes that everything goes well and as planned.. I guess you'll find out Monday how everything went ;)

Thanks for sticking around!!


  1. How exciting to introduce him to all your family! That is usually the most stressful part for me, I want everyone to like who I'm dating!

    For your arms, maybe an open knit sweater?

  2. Funerals are the worse! It gets better though. Eventually after a passing.

  3. Hope everything goes as a planned :)

  4. I'm so sorry for your loss!! I think that you should decide about church on Sunday morning. Maybe you will be really feeling it, maybe you won't be. I think that, at any rate, you will have time with God and shouldn't feel guilty about missing church.

  5. Sending you lots of love. I think going to church might be helpful. Sometimes its not about listening to the message but feeling God's love and comfort when you need it most.

  6. I can't imagine having to go to a funeral and do wedding activities in the same day. My heart goes out to you, and I hope you're able to stay strong through all of this. I'm so so sorry for your loss.

  7. It was a very exciting experience while also veryyy stressful! And there's no way I could have worn any type of sweater, it was 85+ degrees, outdoor wedding! I chose to suck it up and wear the tank-toplike maxi dress.

  8. This funeral was horrible. I cried and cried and cried. But I'm ok. I grieved all weekend.

  9. Thank you, I decided not to go to church Sunday..I had been up really late the night before and the wedding and funeral on Saturday had worn me completely out.

  10. Thank you so much. I decided not to go on Sunday. All of the emotional draining from Saturday made me want to be veryyy lazy and enjoy family time. I definitely felt the love and comfort at the funeral which happened to be at my church. A lot of sadness as well.

  11. It was complete chaos. It wore me completely out! But I definitely feel like strength was a product of this weekend! Thank you so much for thinking of me :)

  12. It is definitely important to take care of your body!

  13. Sounds like it was a weekend full of moments being really high and really low. Hope all went well with everything!! Sorry for your loss!!!