I need an outlet

It's not supposed to happen like this
I'm so scared.
I can't stop, but do I want to?
Why force myself out of happiness?

He's motivated, encouraging, and all around beautiful
This one's different
I can't stop, and I definitely don't want to
Why does this feel so good?

All of the years I thought I had wasted
I'll never go back
I can't stop, full speed ahead
Why couldn't he have come along sooner?

Everything happens for a reason, I assume
I'm so extremely happy
I can't stop, not sure I ever will
What if I get hurt, or worse.. he does?

I'll never allow that to happen to us
He's mine all mine
I can't stop, not without a fight
Why do guys like him cease to exist?

As long as he's with me, I'll be here
In a state of pure happiness
I can't stop, and that's okay
Is this what love is supposed to feel like?



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I've not done this in a long time. I used to write poems all the time. For me, it's such a great outlet. I enjoy it thoroughly. I know it's mushy but, get over it.

I finally got to see Samoa last night! He came home a day early and my heart is soooo full right now. He keeps asking me questions that make me nervous as far as how I feel about him. I am freaking out right now. This is not how it's ever been. It's never been this easy. I am so used to having to impress a guy or go out of my way to show that I like him. With Samoa.. all I have to do is be my normal self without all the bells and whistles. I love it. I don't want it to stop.

So here's the thing.. If things get super serious (MONTHS maybe a YEAR) from now.. my blog will no longer be anonymous. I'll still be a blogger FOR SURE. And I'll still have dating tips, online dating stories, etc. This is part of our story, and I enjoy blogging so that's never going to end..I hope. But stay tuned because maybe just maybe one of these days..you'll get to see the real me :)

Love you all so much <3 Every read/comment means SO much to me.