How I feel

For years and years I have wanted to hear certain words said to me..but not from my momma, my daddy, my family members, or my best friends, but from a man I loved and cared for. I have heard these words from boys I thought I had cared for and was infatuated with. But now it's different.

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Recently, even in the chaos, I have felt beautiful. Not because someone told me so. I have been confident in myself that I am beautiful. I know that there is a God who loves me more than I could ever imagine. Even the fake love that made me happy in the recent past, couldn't compare to the feeling I get when I pray. I know He is there for me.

I also am so overwhelmed with the love of my friends and family. Even though there is still much anger and frustration, I have had the biggest support system!! Even from you lovers! I am BARELY making time to type this, and you are still here for me. I can't get over how close I've come to you all :) It makes me super happy!!

But I am talking to someone ..again. I'm sure you're thinking, my goodness does she ever give herself any time? The answer is no, I don't.

The guy I'm chatting with is actually a guy I was getting to know shortly before Samoa douchebag, and I actually had told this current dude that I didn't want to lead him on because I saw that things with douchebag were getting "serious" and he totally understood. So when he saw me back on POF (yes I downloaded it back)He messaged me to ask if I was ok. That was his first question. He asked me about what happened with the guy I was seeing and I gave him a brief description.. didn't explain it all..that'd be too much.

My momma, she told me don't worry about your size <3
This is my jam!!!





Love ya'll always!! I promise I'll try to get on here more, but right now it's really hard :(