Fall Swapportunity!!

I totes got the best partner in the Fall Swap =) My Blog BF, Krista and I were chosen (at complete random) to be partners in this fun event!! You should be jealous! This has brought so much excitement to my crazy life, and I'm even more excited to see what the Winter/Christmas swap will be like!!

I had planned on stuffing her gift with cute tissue paper, but didn't get to. Love the way she made the boring postal box look adorbs!

Here's everything =) Window clings! An adorable halloween sign that I'm waiting to hang up on October 1st! A cute coozie for my sodas..or other cold beverages ;)

And some Essie polish!!!

If you know me, I love love love nail polish, so I immediately put it on when I grabbed it from the box! Please excuse my lack of nail artistry, but I'd say I did a good job ;) The color is called "smokin' hot" and it's sooooo pretty in person!

Oh I almost forgot about the Reese's cups! Which are snuggled in the freezer right now just waiting to be opened! 

I failed to include a card in the box I gave Krista, but I'll make sure to include it next time! 

I LOVE any type of card, and I didn't even have to tell her that! She actually included 2 cards, but I forgot to take a pic of the other one ;)

This was sooo much fun, and it's not over yet! We're going to be swapping gifts for each season and I am STOKED! :) It's so much fun shopping for these items as well as receiving them! 

Follow Your Arrow

Not to complain any further about my grad school struggles, but it's my blog.. I do what I want!

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So, because I need a quick procrastination tool, I am back on Tinder as well as POF because Tinder has a much slower response rate compared to POF. Also there are more laughs from POF that seem to brighten my day.

Unfortunately, this one dude on POF decided it would be a smart idea to insult my career path. Really? That's the route you've chosen to .. impress me? Or maybe you're just a jerk face. Just because your ignorant in what a social worker actually does and how much it really affects your career path of being a teacher, doesn't give you the right to just assume that I'm "handcuffed by the law into being able to do so little.."

His choice of words kept sending me over the edge, but it's possible that I interpreted it as a little more insulting than it really was. I'm super stressed out! I think I went into grad school with too much confidence, honestly. I thought hey, I did well in undergrad, I'm sure I'll be just fine!

Boy was I wrong! I was fully aware of not having a life when I began school, never did I think I would have a hard time breathing! I don't know how some people work full time while in this program. It's absolutely impossible for me to breathe when I'm only working part time!! Just so y'all can get an idea as to why I'm MIA from my blog here's my schedule:

Monday:

Internship 8:00am-1:00pm

Class 1:30pm-7:00pm

Homework 7:00-?

Tuesday:

Campus Job 8:00am-12:00pm

Class 1:00pm-7:00pm

Homework 7:00-?

Wednesday:

Campus Job 8:00am-12:00pm

Internship meeting 12:00pm-2:00pm

Work 4:30pm-11:00pm

Thursday:

Internship 8:00am-4:30pm

Work(sometimes) 5:00pm-11:00pm

Friday:

Internship 8:00am-4:30pm

Work 5:00pm-11:00pm

Homework is due by 11:59pm in 3 classes

Saturday:

Work varies usually 6-8 hour shift

Sunday:

Work 2:30pm-8:00pm

Paper due by 11:59pm each week



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And I know that everyone else is struggling and having issues as much as I am, but why are they so calm!?

 No one is freaking out as much as I have been!

I am planning a meeting with this sweet guy I've mentioned a few posts ago, 3 whole weeks from now because it's on my fall break and it's the next free day (that I know of) and because he works on weekends (as do I) the weekdays are best for him to meet. So hopefully that will go through. Then I've got the original Ginger Beard chatting with me, I'm now his #1 on BFF on snapchat.. not sure where the heck that's going. Also.. there's GB#2, he's annoying the crap out of me but sometimes he's the only one that will respond.

There's a new dude in play.. yeah I know I know what you're thinking..what the crap Ellie?! You're complaining about not having time, yet you can keep up with all these dudes?
It's ridiculous, I know this, but it's fine.. So new dude.. nickname: Walker
He lives on a farm with many many horses and TN Walker is a horse breed, so yeah Walker it is. This dude seems interesting. He's currently taking classes at the same college I am but our schedules are totally different. Not too much conversation has happened because last week was a bad homework week.

This post is getting too long.
Stay tuned for my Fall Swap Post! Hopefully either tomorrow or Thursday I'll be able to get it up! :)

Help Me Help You!

Beginning in middle school, I don't know why, but my friends would come to me for relationship advice. NO CLUE as to why they chose the loser who only had one boyfriend in 7th grade then the next one came along towards the end of my senior year of high school... but they did! All through high school people would ask me what they should do..

I still am a resource for many of my friends, I guess maybe that's part of why this blog is centered around my dating experiences.

I was thinking... maybe if there are enough to participate.. Every Friday, making it like a Q&A day. I would read emails throughout the week of your questions, and I'll post my opinion/answer to it on Fridays. I would keep it anonymous! Unless you leave me a little note saying, I can mention your name. Otherwise, I will just state the question/scenario to be analyzed and then I'll respond! What do you all think?

Here's what IIIII think about it. 

1. It'll help me to blog more

2. We can build better relationships

3. It will be so much fun!

Please comment and let me know if you think this is a good/bad idea. It won't hurt my feelings if you really think it's a bad idea. I'm still averaging 40-50 page views A DAY! How? I have no clue because I've been a terrible blogger since school started. I love ya'll so much :)

Priorities

Excuse the recycled post that I hope Nina from The Grand Adventures of Me doesn't mind me reusing :) I figured with the chaos of my schedule and school and my schedule and school and so on and so forth... that maybe I should start scheduling posts! I'm going to try to do more of this at least :)
So here is my post titled Priorities:

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“I had this guy leave me a voice mail at work, and so I called him at home, and he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies. It’s exhausting.”
-Drew Barrymore in He’s Just Not That Into You

Can I get an amen?!

When you're using online dating as a way to meet a significant other, you've gotta have your priorities in line.
I personally suggest that you have yourself figured out before you start figuring out your perfect guy.

Does he love Jesus?

Is marriage something he wants? If yes, how soon?

Will he be a hopeless romantic by providing that romance you desire?

Does he work in a satisfying career?

Does he value his family?

Was his home-life as a child difficult or easy?

Is he passionate towards something meaningful?

These are all great questions to consider, but you've got to answer same questions for yourself!

Are you in a good relationship with Jesus and will you be able to share that with your date?

Do you want to eventually get married? If yes, when?

Is romance important to you? Do you request every door to be opened and flowers on occasion?

Do you work in a satisfying career or are you doing something (going to school) in order to eventually work in that career?

Do you value your family, and do you want the other person to value theirs?

Was your home-life difficult as a child? If so, would you need some counseling?

Are you passionate towards anything? Would you feel comfortable telling others about it?

We put this HUGE responsibility on the men to hold up their end of the deal, when sometimes we don't even know much about ourselves! Before you begin online dating, or dating in general... make sure you know a general idea of what you want out of the relationship. 

What's most important to you?

Maybe you feel like romance isn't necessarily important compared to family values.

And let's face it, we change our minds as much as we change our underwear (hopefully) and your priorities may change from time to time.

One thing that you should have developed by the age of 20 would be the number one priority. If your number one priority changes multiple times, you may have issues. You've got to have something to build a foundation on. Personally, mine is Jesus. Although, I have from time to time strayed and made bad decisions, He always lets me back.

How I feel

For years and years I have wanted to hear certain words said to me..but not from my momma, my daddy, my family members, or my best friends, but from a man I loved and cared for. I have heard these words from boys I thought I had cared for and was infatuated with. But now it's different.

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Recently, even in the chaos, I have felt beautiful. Not because someone told me so. I have been confident in myself that I am beautiful. I know that there is a God who loves me more than I could ever imagine. Even the fake love that made me happy in the recent past, couldn't compare to the feeling I get when I pray. I know He is there for me.

I also am so overwhelmed with the love of my friends and family. Even though there is still much anger and frustration, I have had the biggest support system!! Even from you lovers! I am BARELY making time to type this, and you are still here for me. I can't get over how close I've come to you all :) It makes me super happy!!

But I am talking to someone ..again. I'm sure you're thinking, my goodness does she ever give herself any time? The answer is no, I don't.

The guy I'm chatting with is actually a guy I was getting to know shortly before Samoa douchebag, and I actually had told this current dude that I didn't want to lead him on because I saw that things with douchebag were getting "serious" and he totally understood. So when he saw me back on POF (yes I downloaded it back)He messaged me to ask if I was ok. That was his first question. He asked me about what happened with the guy I was seeing and I gave him a brief description.. didn't explain it all..that'd be too much.

My momma, she told me don't worry about your size <3
This is my jam!!!





Love ya'll always!! I promise I'll try to get on here more, but right now it's really hard :(